Reason

I have locked away those feelings

I have hidden from the pain

Trying hard to just feel nothing

Waiting for the coming rain

Looking out and looking inward

Feeling lonely, feeling lost

Looking back at bad decisions

Thinking only of the cost

Trapped inside these walls around me

Through these years that I have built

Sentenced to regrets and sorrow

Paralyzed by endless guilt

Searching for a ray of sunshine

Through these clouds surrounding me

Undone by my own foolishness

For all the world to see

Wondering how it all got started

Wondering how I lost my friends

Tracing steps from the beginning

So much closer to the end

Yet still I find a reason

To believe there is some way

That there is some hidden meaning

As I face another day

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