Final Chapter

I’ve been dancing with the devil

Where once I walked the line

I’ve been hiding from the truth

Trying to find some peace of mind

It’s so hard to write the ending

It’s so hard to play the part

It’s so hard to get these words out

Writing with a broken heart

There’s a pain that seems unending

And a fear of the unknown

Afraid to turn this final page

And feeling so alone

All the laughter and the good times

All the hard times and the tears

All those memories behind me

As I face my final years

I don’t know how not to love you

So, we shake our heads and cry

And we wonder how we’ll ever

Find the words to say goodbye

Letting all of love’s bright promise

Fade away into the past

And the burning flame of passion

That was never meant to last

It’s so hard to fight these feelings

That have been there from the start

 Leaving all the care and comfort

Left with just this broken heart  

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For Tommy - Four Years Gone

Where is my son
Where is his laughter
Where is my one baby boy
Why was he taken
Leaving just memories
Where is my pride and my joy

Where is my brother
Does he miss his sisters
The way that we miss him each day
I wish he were here now
I wish we could tell him
The things that we never could say

Where is my uncle
Has he seen the new ones
Including the one on the way
I know he would love them
And they would love him
Why can’t he be here today

Where is my grandson
What is the purpose
Of taking him long before me
It doesn’t seem fair
That he should go first
For reasons that no one can see

I wish we could see you
To tell you we love you
With a love that is forever strong
And each day that we live
We know you are with us
And will be until we’re all gone

For love is eternal
Although life goes so fast
These feelings forever will stay
Until we cross over
And find you there waiting
In the land of the unclouded day

1/6/2010

In Memoriam - Thomas E. "Tomcat" Tarr, Jr. 12/5/81 - 1/8/06

I saw his soul ascending
Flying towards the light
A silhouette of wings spread
A young bird taking flight
I saw the nest he left behind
So full of broken hearts
I feel their loss and sorrow
Each time a tear drop starts
I haven't seen the other side
But I know he's safe and warm
Somewhere the senseless acts of fools
Can never bring him harm
He left behind a sadder world
For all of those who care
But when it's time for us to fly
I know we'll see him there

A Christmas Poem

‘Twas days before Christmas
On the cold city streets
As I slumbered in comfort
On four hundred count sheets
The presents were wrapped
No meals left to fix
But the spirit of Christmas
Was lost in the mix
We had counted our blessings
With no expense spared
While others went hungry
And nothing was shared
No gifts for poor children
Who can’t choose where they live
No joy for their parents
With nothing to give
A small act of kindness
Can go very far
For those who have nothing
You can be their star
Please, take time to reach out
And answer the call
Spread peace on the earth
And goodwill to all

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12/3/2012

The world from my perspective

Hasn’t changed much through the years

At times it’s out of focus

Obscured by my own tears

And the road still lies before me

But the journey wears me down

Marked by haunting, nameless faces

Who speak, but make no sound

And the ones who came before me

Who tried to make a stand

Gave way to waves of sadness

Like footprints in the sand

While the world grows mean and angry

Driven by an endless greed

Turning blindly from the sorrow

Of the ones who live in need

Still  the tyrants use the soldiers

And the soldiers give their lives

In some pointless war for profit

Where the poor are sacrificed

And my soul, just like my body

Wears the wounds of battles lost

And a heart that was born broken

Pays the price and knows the cost

I am tired, lost and lonely

And there’s nothing left to do

But to dream of bright tomorrows

Where the road leads back to you