Doubt

Waking every morning

Trying to stay strong

Living all the lyrics

Written in some song

Words some poet's written

Feelings set to rhyme

Like he saw inside me

Memories set in time

Cups of real strong coffee

Songs strung end to end

Desperate for something

Comfort from a friend

Looking for some answers

To questions I forgot

All the things I tried to be

I find out I am not

Words that stain the paper

Pain that stains the heart

Living with mistakes I've made

Just trying to play this part

So much road behind me now

So many wasted years

Trying hard to look ahead

Blinded by these tears 

Can you hear the singer

Do you know the song

Is there rhyme or reason

For losing for so long

Memories of love that failed

Things I can't forget

Callous words I can't take back

Leave my pillow wet

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Inspiration

I’ve got so much to say to you

I never find the time

To share these secrets locked inside

I put it down in rhyme

A song inspires the writer

The writers pens a song

To speak the words the mouth cannot

It never takes too long

The fingers strain to keep up

With what flows from the soul

To offer up a sacrifice

That makes the writer whole

The writer starts another song

The singer sits and waits

To put words to those feelings

Before it gets too late

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The Longing

There’s an emptiness inside me

That nothing seems to fill

And a loneliness down in my soul

That nothing seems to kill

There’s a desperate lover waiting

For one I have not met

And a memory of what may be

Of one I can’t forget

There’s a thirst that is unquenchable

And a well that has gone dry

There’s a sadness in the dampness

Of a teardrop in my eye

A song is playing in my ear

That takes me far away

A place where love is blossoming

And gracing each new day

It’s there I find you waiting

And I pause for a short while

To find comfort in your loving touch

And beauty in your smile

So, come to me, if just in dreams

And stay with me tonight

Hold me close, sweet angel

Until the morning’s light

The Message

There’s a special kind of genius

That won’t make you a cent

It lands you in your autumn years

Just wondering where time went

There’s an endless hunger yearning

For a soul that’s satisfied

And a fire forever burning

In the message you can’t hide

There is method in the madness

But the madness takes control

Leaving just regret and sadness

And the losses take their toll

Thoughts you hide from in the daylight

Haunt you in the dark of night

With no comfort to escape to

Waiting for the new day’s light

There’s a masterpiece inside you

If you reach that far inside

Behind walls built by the failures

You have known each time you’ve tried

But still, the light inside you

Draws you closer to the flame

So, you search on for a reason

Things won’t always be the same

And you write about the pain you see

To ease the pain you feel

Just hoping someone will believe

These dreams could all be real

And even if they never read

Or understand a word

The messenger may never know

But the message will be heard

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This Far Down The Road

I've been torn and I've been tattered

I've been beaten by the rain

And I've waited in the darkness

For the sun to shine again

Lost so many friends and lovers

And I nearly lost my mind

Looking for a rhyme or reason

Never seeing I was blind

Always doing it the hard way

Seemed the only way I learned

Heading in the wrong direction

Lost, no matter where I turned

But I always found the kindness

Of loving hearts so sweet and pure

Gentle spirits I could lean on

Helped my wandering soul endure

And I still have miles to travel

But I've learned to bear the load

All the love that I've been given

Got me this far down the road

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