Aging Heart

I wait for invitation

Paralyzed by fears

Scarred by insecurities

Built up through the years

So afraid to share this heart

It’s all I’ve left to give

Worn and slightly damaged

By the life I chose to live

I need some indication

A sign or just a smile

To let me know surrender

Might somehow be worthwhile

But I have walked that path before

Stumbled and I fell

Afraid it isn’t worth the chance

With no sure way to tell

Too old for starting over

Too young to be alone

Wondering if this foolish heart

Will someday turn to stone

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The Road

Some twists, some turns, a few dead ends

Some unfamiliar land

Taken to some places

Much too dark to understand

Detours, good and bad ones

Bumps and potholes, too

Trying to stay between the ditches

And maintain my point of view

Without hurting my companions

Traveling with me on this road

Knowing every journey’s better

With a friend to share the load

Words of wisdom fall on deaf ears

Trying hard to guide the blind

Navigating through this darkness

Trying always to be kind

And the ones who walked before me

Blazed the trail and light my way

Knowing after every dark night

There will be a brighter day

So, come join me on this journey

Share your stories and your smile

And cherish every step you take

 We only walk awhile

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She Persisted

She never fit the mold they made

She never knew her place

She knew that she was so much more

Than just a pretty face

She chose to live her life out loud

While others just existed

Others might have given in

But not her, she persisted

Inside she had a heart of gold

That didn’t make her weak

The harsh world all around her

Made her angry, made her speak

She couldn’t be a timid soul

Although the world insisted

She could have simply bit her tongue

But not her, she persisted

She could have sat there in the back

And never said a word

Kept her thoughts inside her head

Where no one ever heard

And yielded to the status quo

The one no one resisted

And given up, without a fight

But not her, she persisted

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Reflections

Looking in a mirror

Reflecting on my youth

At all lines the miles have left

On this lonely road to truth

Memories of days gone by

The good ones and the bad

Remind me of the losses

And all the love I've had

Wondering how I got this far

Much closer to the end

Alone here in this empty room

And trying to pretend

I somehow made a difference

Some way to ease my mind

Searching for some purpose

That seems so hard to find

Tomorrow brings a new day

A chance to find some light

To chase the doubts inside in this heart

That find me every night

Sing a song for The Pretender

Still trying to believe

There is some rhyme or reason

In this tapestry I weave

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