Dreams of You (For Wendy)

In dreams I hear your laughter

In sleep I see your smile

Memories of better times

Some comfort for awhile

Filling all those spaces

Left empty since you’re gone

A respite from the pain I feel

When I am all alone

Struggling to find the strength

To just deal with the strain

To live the life that you could not

And not succumb to pain

So, when it seems too much to bear

And I’m not sure what to do

I’ll wake up from these dreams, dear friend

And live this day for you

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Perspective

So many miles behind me

Spent traveling on this road

So many lost along the way

Who could not bear the load

Sidelined by some detours

Lonely, cold and lost

A prisoner of my regrets

Surveying what it cost

The price for all those feelings

Paid with all those tears

All the things I thought had mattered

Were victims of the years

Ten years becomes twenty

As times just slips away

Looking for some answers

Or just a place to stay

A place beyond this empty void

Far from the pain and strife

Where I can see things clearly

And make sense of this life

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Earthbound

I’ve been earthbound for too long now

So afraid to touch the sky

Far away from all the freedoms

I knew when I could fly

I’ve been grounded with no flight plan

Only flying in my dreams

In a void south of reality

Where nothing’s as it seems

My wings are bent and broken

My heart is broken, too

From dreams that died in transit

Before they could come true

I have no navigator

I see no runway lights

No clearing me for takeoff

No plans for future flight

My wheels have turned to anchors

That tie me to the ground

And the clouds on my horizon

Hide the love that might be found

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Caught in Amber

I’ve been staring at your picture

I’ve been walking Memory Lane

Trying hard to just feel something

And a way to keep me sane

I’ve been crawling under rainbows

All alone inside this crowd

I’ve forsaken silver linings

For the darkness of these clouds

I’ve been numb and I’ve been lifeless

I’ve been trying to believe

That there is some rhyme or reason

Why we live and why we grieve

I’ve been too long being lonely

I’ve got one more row to hoe

Searching for some sort of meaning

Until it’s time for me to go

I’ve been hiding my emotions

I’ve forgotten how to cry

With a pain that was my birthright

That will haunt me ‘til I die

I just need to find some comfort

Wishing that I had a friend

All alone from the beginning

So much closer to the end

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Mile Marker

I’m waiting here impatiently

For a message or a sign

To give my life a purpose

Or find some peace of mind

A sleepless, stoned sleepwalker

Awake, but in a dream

Where rhymes flow without reason

And nothing’s as it seems

From fairy tales to Angel Dust

To where I stand today

Memories and lovers lost

There’s not much left to say

All the trips and journeys

I’ve taken on this ride

Have left me stripped and naked

With nothing left to hide

I’ve never been so lonely

I’ve never felt this cold

Searching for some missing pieces

None the wiser, growing old

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