Lessons Learned

I've been holding onto memories

Too blind to see the past

Rose colored glasses

See dreams not meant to last

 We hide from our own failures

We hide our hearts from pain

Knowing somewhere deep inside

We can't go back again

The good times shine much brighter

Than the anger and the tears

Forgetting what tore us apart

Softened through the years

You learn from your mistakes

Or repeat them one by one

Scars that never seem to fade

Until your time is done

So, let me put these walls up

To protect this fragile heart

And hide it from the dangers

That tore my world apart

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Twilight

 

Sixty-nine and I'm still counting

As the years go screaming by

Marked by joys and scarred by losses

So we live and so we die

With the bigger part behind me

Hope the best is yet to come

Never sure where I am going

Or forgetting where I'm from

Kindness was my birthright

Mama's love showed me the way

My best friend and example

She's still with me every day

Seems I'm always starting over

Once again, I'm on my own

But the love that I've been given

Means I'll never be alone

So, come and walk beside me

Before my life's light fades away

And share some love and laughter

While we have the time to play

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Tapestry

 

We are all imperfect people

In a world that’s grown so cold

Searching for something that’s perfect

None the wiser, growing old

Mama said my life’s a tapestry

Every chapter is a thread

Woven stories I have written

From the memories in my head

Lovers lost and souls departed

Was the venture worth the gain

Was the price too much to cover

Was the profit worth the pain

Fragile hearts are always broken

Careless whispers leave a scar

That pain is inescapable

No matter who you are

The middle of my tapestry

Returns to mark the end

With one who stood the test of time

My love and my best friend

She is perfectly imperfect

But she's perfect for this heart

Woven in this tapestry

My favorite work of art

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Quench me

It's been a long, hot summer

That's parched my mouth and soul

A season void of comfort

Or rains to make me whole

This heart feels like a desert

Abandoned in a drought

Seems there are no clouds in sight

No way to chase these doubts

Bad luck and worse decisions

Have led me to this place

No tender kiss to help return

A smile to this man's face

At times like this, I wonder

Have I not yet seen the worst

Or will I look into the eyes

Of one who'll quench my thirst 

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Metamorphosis

I found out I was living

With one I barely knew

A stranger in my mirror

Unsure of what to do

Circumstances forced my hand

Out of my comfort zone

Afraid, but only briefly

Of living on my own

Finding I am strong enough

Just like Mama said

Chasing all the doubts that lived

Rent-free inside my head

Now, the man there in my mirror

Seems like a long lost friend

Time to find what really matters 

And be myself again

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Soulmate

Hello again, my favorite one

This one is for you

A little further down the road

My heart knows what is true

I don't want to change a thing

Especially your mind

There is no other like you

So generous and kind

You know me like no other

And yet, you love me still

Thick and thin, through everything

A bond that time can't kill

The Arms of the Angel

Much more than just a song

You bring my soul a comfort

When everything seems wrong

I won't take another lover

I'd rather be your friend

And share this journey with you

From now until the end

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New Adventures (For an Old Heart)

Every new adventure

Has a little seed of doubt

Stay focused on your guiding light

To keep the darkness out

Nothing lasts forever

Love's a cruel game

Passion fades like memories

Just like a dying flame

Starting over isn't easy

Much closer to the end

I may not love another

But I sure could use a friend

One who knows the truth inside me

And somehow loves me still

Who sees inside this damaged heart

A love that time can't kill

I can't undo all I have done

I can't rewrite the past

All the chapters I have lived

Prepared me for the last

Another new adventure

One more uncertain start

The only thing that stays the same

Is your place in my heart

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Unbroken

I have nothing left to give away

I gave it all before

There is nothing that I hope to gain

Not wondering what's in store

Nothing much can hurt me

Or break through this stone wall

No one here can lift me up

No one can make me fall

No more happy endings

No more time to start

You can't break what has been broken

Born with a broken heart

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Letting Go

It’s so hard moving forward 

When your heart lives in the past

Tied to an old memory 

That you thought was going to last

But you can’t ignite a fire

That went dark so long ago

And there’s no one here to warm me

Cold embers never glow

It takes two to get it started

It took two to put it out

With nothing left but ashes

Both erasing any doubt

Haunted by the memories

These dreams my heart did weave

Lost in my own fantasy

And trying to believe

But dreams are for the sleeping

Now I find myself awake

There’s nothing I can give you

And nothing I can take

So I bury those old feelings

The final curtain of our show

See the clock no longer ticking 

Now it’s time for letting go 

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Circles

 

I’ve been running from old feelings

I’ve been hiding from the ghosts

Of memories that haunt me

Of love that meant the most

I’ve been chasing after rainbows

Looking for that pot of gold

Now, I sit here empty handed

Feeling lonely, growing old

In a hall that’s lined with mirrors

Reflecting on my past

Faceless pictures looking back

Never meant to last

But it seems I run in circles

That lead me back to you

Memories, both good and bad

A love forever true

It’s funny, but it isn’t

It’s happy, but it’s sad

That love that was and is somehow

The best I’ve ever had 

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